A New Leaf Has Been Turned

Hello bloggers:

As everyone is preparing for Easter this weekend and the festivities it involves, I hope we all have a great time and the Easter bunny brings us lots of treats. Tonight as I sit here writing this entry, I am very proud of myself because it is something that I wanted to write for the past 2 years now.

As some of you may know, I have a YouTube channel that I began 3 years ago. I started it off with gaming videos, animations, and fun challenges that I did with my boyfriend. But back in 2016, I lost the passion to continue on with my channel. When I first started my channel, I played the game “Five Nights at Freddy’s”, which was a horror survival game. I began making animations using the characters from that game. I got nearly 30,000 subscribers, over 13,000,000 views on all of those videos, and many fans. I would get fan art, people saying they want to meet me, and people saying I was their favorite YouTuber. 

So what went wrong, you may ask?

I noticed that people didn’t really watch my videos for me. They didn’t like me; they weren’t a fan of me; they were a fan of the video game. They liked the animations, they liked the game plays, they liked the game itself. Whenever I would upload another video, say a challenge video or a story time, it would get as many dislikes as likes. It would get 100 views whereas my other videos had over 2 million views. Why was this happening? I asked myself for so long. Then the answer came: my channel became a channel for “Five Nights at Freddy’s”. I was no longer in control of my channel; it was in control of me. When I posted another type of video, comments would flock in saying I needed to go back to the other videos. So I did. I became miserable and resentful of YouTube.

At one point, it was amazing. It was fun, I had a lot of passion for it and it was wonderful. I was making a decent paycheck every month from the ad money I was receiving on my videos, and life was great. But as months went on, it got dull. I did not like where it was heading. I wanted to be in control of my channel again, to make things that I wanted to make. And I couldn’t.

For fear of the hate. For fear of the disapproval. For fear of the unsubscribers. 

I stopped making videos. Biweekly videos turned into 2 videos per year. I envied YouTubers who had fun making their videos, got to be themselves and had an audience that respected them and followed them on their journey.

Something in me snapped at the beginning of March. I didn’t know what it was. It just snapped. I had a mini breakdown and I realized: This life is short. I want to make videos that I want to make. I no longer want to be constrained by the audience that only wants me to make videos that I no longer have any passion or interest in whatsoever. So I went to the store and bought a brand new camera. I planned out what I was going to say, sat down, and filmed it. I was so nervous it took me until now to finally upload it. The response was better than I imagined. Some people were disappointed, but the others understood. I was so afraid to take this initial step and say to my audience: “This is me. This is what I am doing now.” But I did, and I’ve never felt so happy.

At the end of the day, I am a super girly, super loud 20 year old girl. I have a blog, a book, a (surprisingly enough) Famous Birthdays profile and a brand that I adhere myself to. But search up my name in Google and there you have it: pictures of animated robotic chickens all over the place. How embarrassing! Not my image nor brand at all.

Collaborations were turned down because no one wanted to work with me. Not because my content wasn’t good, but I wanted to work with people whose videos were the type I wanted to make, but didn’t. Our channels were totally different. Go to my channel and see animations from “Five Nights at Freddy’s”, in which were pretty lame if I do say so myself . . .  well, it wasn’t promising in this line of work. Even if I were to make a new video, like I said, my audience would thumb it down so quick I couldn’t even have time to think about what went wrong. Comments would desperately exclaim: “Go back to your old content!”

A new leaf has been turned over. This is finally me. Victoria Hecnar, making the videos I wanted to make from the very beginning. Blogging about what I wanted to blog about, from the very beginning. 

Now that I am on my way to building a brand and image for myself that I can be proud of, you’re going to see a lot more than me! I’m going to be uploading weekly videos, writing weekly blog posts, and updating my Instagram a lot more than before (yup, no more photo per 6 months!) This year, starting now, is going to be about my passions and going forward, I am no longer doing things for the numbers or for the interests of others. 

There are thousands of other animated videos out there, and my channel will no longer be one of them. It was an incredible journey, but this has to be done. I am doing this for me and for my well-being.

A new leaf has been turned.

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Here’s the video of me explaining everything in detail. Hey, why don’t you subscribe to me while you’re at it?!

Summer Hauls and More

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You know, I’ve never really understood of the point in making videos of hauls and stuff, but then I started watching them and it grew on me. Not only are they fun to watch, but it’s also almost like watching a commercial for all the stuff you’re interested in along with a review by someone who’s not an actress. Therefore, I figured since I do that YouTube thing now, it’d be cool to make some of my own.

Here are some of the brands featured in my summer clothing haul and make up video:

STORES/BRANDS FEATURED:
♡ American Eagle by Payless ♡
♡ Bella Marie by Kozmo ♡
♡ Stitches ♡
♡ Ardène ♡
♡ Reitmans ♡
♡ Bluenotes ♡
♡ Maybelline New York ♡
♡ Hard Candy ♡
♡ Still Spa Essentials ♡
♡ Wal-Mart ♡
♡ The Body Shop ♡

And then here are the brands featured in my home-made cosmetic video:

 COMPANIES FEATURED:
http://www.traceyscreativecandles.com
http://www.smellthesoap.com
http://www.BeachBabybb.com
http://www.gourmetlollipops.ca

All in all, the stuff that I had purchased was relatively cheap and pretty awesome.Things included cool new sparkly liquid eye-shadow, mascara, patterned high waisted shorts, cute summer dresses, and adorable shoes. Here’s the videos to watch: 

If you haven’t already, please subscribe to my channel! See ya later! xx

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Product Review: Nivea’s Lip Butter

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Hello everyone, I’ve found my latest lip balm obsession. It’s Nivea’s lip butter line of products. Nivea is known for their amazingly smooth lip balms, which are full of flavour, and easy on our wallets. The lip butter brand has tons of flavours, including Caramel Cream Kiss, Raspberry Rose Kiss, Vanilla & Macadamia Kiss, and Blueberry Blush. Currently my favourite is Vanilla & Macadamia Kiss, which is so delicious and yummy that you almost want to eat it. Right from the first application, your lips are already in for a treat. They make your lips incredibly soft and give them a luscious shine without being too thick or overdoing it like a lot of other lip butter brands. I rate these a straight 7/10 for being yummy, delicious, and a good price. They definitely work, they remind me of EOS lip balms in the sense of smoothness and softness. Currently they only have four, but new ones are set to come out soon. You can buy them at most retail stores like Wal-Mart and/or Target, or you can snatch them up online by clicking here. Have a good week everyone, hope to see you soon!

Love,

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Learning About Life

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Love. That’s probably the number one thing about life. It’s the number one purpose, the number one reason, the number one everything. Not love as just in two people (although yes, it does count) but love for anything at all. Love for an item, love for a person, love for a place, or love for your life. And because of love, it drives us to do something that we’re passionate about. Whatever your drive is, your goal, destination, the number one life lesson is to never give up.

I’m young, but I still am able to preach this. I’ve lived enough now to know myself, to know others, and to (partially) know the world. Never let small minds say your dreams are too big. Never let someone tell you who or what to love. Just be yourself. 

In life, you only get one body, one soul. And that’s you. Always protect yourself. Take care of yourself. Love yourself. Never be fake and do what you love to do no matter what anyone else says. Trust your heart, take chances, but also be wise and careful.

Dream so big that it scares you and don’t be afraid to fall flat on your face. If you believe in yourself, you’ll never give up, and the world will never give up on you, either. In one sentence? The number one lesson in life is to be yourself, to be a nice human, to not let others ever bring you down, and to love.

That’s what I’ve learned thus far about this crazy world.

Beats™ By Dr. Dre™—Yay Or Nay?

I need some advice. I haven’t bought myself a nice pair of headphones for a while, so I was thinking, I probably should. I really want the Beats headphones. I hear they’re amazing quality . . . which is what I need, and, of course, I love the colour pink and they have them in that colour. But is it worth buying? I would love it if some of you commented your opinion on the headphones before I go out and buy them.

 

beats-by-dr-dre-logoJust drop me a comment below, or you can reach me at my social media sites. You can tell me what your preference is, what you think the sound quality is like, which ones you would buy, or if I should steer away from them completely. Thank you everyone!

How To Be Inspirational

If you want to give your life purpose, then being an inspiration to yourself and others is a great way to go. Here are some great tips posted by author Robin Sharma to get you going.

1. Do important work vs. merely offering opinions. 2. Lift people up vs. tear others down. 3. Use the words of leadership vs. the language of victimhood. 4. Don’t worry about getting the credit for getting things done. 5. Become part of the solution rather than part of the problem. 6. Take your health to a level called superfit. 7. Commit to mastery of your craft instead of accepting mediocrity in your work.   8. Associate with people whose lives you want to be living. 9. Study for an hour a day. Double your learning and you’ll triple your success. 10. Run your own race. “No one can possibly achieve real and lasting success by being a conformist,” wrote billionaire J. Paul Getty 11. Do something small yet scary every single day. 12. Lead Without a Title. 13. Focus on people’s strengths vs. obsessing around their weaknesses. 14. Remember that potential unused turns into pain. So dedicate yourself to expressing your best. 15. Smile more. 16. Listen more. 17. Read the autobiography of Nelson Mandela. 18. Reflect on the words of Eleanor Roosevelt who said: “Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people.” 19. Persist longer than the critics suggest you should. 20. Say “please” and “thank you”. 21. Love your loved ones. 22. Do work that matters.